Around the Doorway
Squeaky socks on cold mint floors. Ice cream walls surrounding popscicle stick beds.
Creaking, wheezing, plastic cushions and emphysemic sofas.
Holding happy smiling drones of so much common ink.
The silent clock points the time and slowly each allows a cushion to again inhale.
With awkward silence and shuffling feet they move to politely crowd the half open door.
Names are spoken in confidential tones
and little paper cups if colored candy are returned neatly empty.
Strangers wearing badges of Authority ask difficult and painful questions in voices only half hushed.
asking for intimate answers to receive better annunciation.
Paled, water gone, empty cup returned
they go off slowly - one by one
To check the clock on stockinged feet, and the list of what unchanged thing is to follow.
Purple shadows fall like spider mascaraed eyelashes.
Casting their pink webs of light across the array of mixed emotions
their faces can not help but betray.
Lost Souls
There are so many lost souls here. Many who have meandered innocently into the darkness of unrelenting self doubt. Others who boldly stepped off into the muddle of mixed colors that seemed to offer the chance of a rainbow but, instead, they found the colors were just the blaze of so many dew beads on the steel strong threads of a greedy web. Some were thrust early from the road we were told was to be expected. And others of us had a hand come from an innocuous shadow and tear us from what could have been.
So many hearts burdened with "should of" and "if only" or wrapped so tightly in protective layers they can barely beat.
So many wraiths of the past and rattling chains of the future.
And then, in the seemingly impenetrable darkness our eyes long ago adjusted to and our minds and bodies learned to call "normal" and "right" a tiny tendril of light - of real light - the kind so many of have forgotten or had given up on as a childhood fantasy leaks through a crack we missed buttressing with our own dark matter.
With the light come voices - so foreign. Offering the terrifying prospect of hope, and even the unthinkable - understanding.
So many lost souls - so many who turn an ear to the voices, who inch closer to the light - who find they are far from lost, but perfectly found.
I've watched as some here allowed more and more of the light to fall on their souls - and it starts to radiate out through a found voice shared, eyes that have cast away their dullness and now hold a gleam full of promise, and real and honest friendships forged through the pain of truthful tears and the sweat of together working to widen the crack and let the light, slowly and painfully show us the harsh truth of how
strong, caring, giving, and deeply beautiful we really are.